I really liked this movie...

Isn't it wonderful to have this moment for real?
Knowing that person you choose to be with would take his time to strum his guitar and sing his heart out just for you...

That would be one sweet reason to be grateful not just existing but alive...

I thank God I'm not pressured w/ my work this time...
Maybe He knows- one more pressure and my mind would blow up!

Rest days' comin' up!!! I'm soo excited! I have so many plans in mind, hopefully I can accomplish them this weekend.

i find myself silly sometimes
i pull up my email and just find myself diggin' the same old stuff again
i try not to bring the old memories of you and me
i've managed not to think of you anymore
i told myself many times before to get over you
i've had that one last cry years ago
but now i caught myself thinking of you
now i find myself reading the same old stuff
your letters made me think of the old days
your words made me feel the same way the first time i read them

how i wish i could bring back the time when all i know is you and me

did i ever imagine that you would have to leave?
was i able to picture then a life alone?
did it cross my mind that there is a chance we won't be together after then?
did it ever cross my senses that you may not be loving me when you're gone?
did i ever feel that I would never have you after you leave?

sometimes i feel sorry for myself not being able to foresee what could happen next
i want to cry and blame myself not for being aware of what could take place when you leave

and yet i feel good at the same time 'coz then i didn't feel sorry for myself
then i never felt a stance that you weren't there
then i never felt so alone and lonely in my existence
then i never felt so regretfull and sorry because i never said the things i wanted you to know

because then i was more than hoping...i was expecting that we'll be together
everything seemed so perfect, i never thought that reality might change it
i would have never thought that time and space and the world can take you from me
because you seemed so close...closer than i could hold you in my arms-
you are a part of me- every heartbeat, every breath, everything i see...i smell...i think...
it was not all about you...but you were part of every single thing. every single matter. every single space.

see now i'm losing myself again. i can never cry like i did before. those tears were gone.
but until now, i can remember every tear that fell. i remember the reason for all those tears.
visions of you and everything you are are still vivid in mind.
until now the same old questions are still there. i'm not confused anymore but i'm still wondering...

wondering why God planned us this way. i wonder...will He ever plan us to meet again? will He ever want us to be together again? will you love me again? will i love you again?

or maybe, the question is, do i still love you?